olivia

hello everyone! my name is olivia! :) i'm a huuge tumblr fan, its pretty much all i do. . i have a few heart defects but whatever i'm living life and to me thats all that matters. theres a boy in my life who i am madly in love with. he doesnt know it yet. we've been talking for almost a year now. we're not official yet.. it's complicated..our age difference is alittle high. im 18 and hes 24. it bothers him much more than it bothers me and i competely understand. its worse on his part than mine. i wish i could grow the balls to tell him how i feel before my disorders and defects take my life. he's the reason why im trying to get better, he's the reason why i'm alive right now. theres been so many times where i've been 100% ready to take my life, but something stopped me everytime. no my friends, not my family, not my sister. it was him. i know thats messed up but i cant even put into words to how he makes me feel. i could talk about him for hours but before i kill you all with boredom, i'll change the subject. ANYWAY! i'm going to my dream college this year, delaware valley college. i got accepted into the equine science program. horses are my life. without them, i woudlnt be who i am today (the positive part of me that is). i cant picture my future doing anything but helping them and thats what i plan on doing. well to sums things up, i enjoy long walks in the park, transformers exercising, and my hamster. have a great day and never hesitate to ask me anything! <3